Your Thoughts Come With 'Give a Penny, Take a Penny'

1.  This is the summer that wasn't summer.  It in no way feels like it should.  Or maybe I am just getting to old because this is my first summer that isn't following the completion of a school year.  Regardless, the weather has been much cooler than normal.  I have had a few days in just the past few weeks (the so called "dog days" of summer) where I have worn sweaters and zip-ups.  I haven't even worn shorts at all this year with the exception of swim shorts.  Summer was the season that always boosted my spirits but instead I feel the same melancholy way I have the whole year.  I seriously don't know what my problem is.  Will I always be in this funk?  Is this the fucking adulthood funk?  If so, how do people deal with this shit?

2.  I did, however, figure out a question I have had the past four or so years.  Has the world always been this messed up and I never noticed or is it just now really bad?  It has always been like this.  I just now have the knowledge to understand it and pay attention.  It's shitty, but I always try to force myself to look at the positive because there is so much of it.  Unfortunately, it doesn't receive the attention it deserves.

3.  All of these big life decisions seem to be dropping on me at once.  Does anyone ever really have their life together or is it a constant struggle to see what pieces fit the best?  Are we always searching for something that could possibly be better?  The majority of my high school classmates are either married, engaged, or have children.  I cannot even imagine any of those right now and that's not just because I have absolutely zero desire to ever have children and am not too keen on the whole marriage thing.  I'm feeling that my outlook on life is vastly different from those around me.  Which doesn't bother me too much, I am still very excited for someone when they are excited about any of the previously stated things, but it would be nice for someone else to understand.

4.  In two hours I will have approximately one week left of being 23.  I don't expect 24 to be much better since I will technically now be in my mid-twenties.  How the hell did that happen?   I really don't feel like I should be at this age already.  Almost a quarter of a century old.  It's sad when my next big age milestone will be 30.  Though, after all, it is just a number.

5.  Disney World will be in two months.  I cannot wait.  Though I wish I were staying there longer than a week.  I need one week for Disney and one week for just general Florida stuff with my friends.  I'm hoping to just be able to stay up all night one night so we could go to the ocean or something.  Experience the nature and not just the constructed funland.