All Out of Faith

I don't think I've ever felt so lost in my life.  I just want to be finished and move on with everything.  Though I'm not sure how I would move on yet.  It seems like nothing that I want to do will give me enough money to make a living on my own.  I'm not sure if what I'm in school for is what I want to do.  Can't I get paid to read books?  Can't I work at a zoo or museum teaching people about the things they are looking at? I want to be that one person who gave them a little something extra to walk away with on their visit.  Give stickers to kids and give them the opportunity to see a giraffe skull.  At first I loved growing up.  Now, I kind of want to take it back.  Student teaching is making me go out of my mind.  I don't feel like myself anymore.  I don't feel motivated anymore.  It feels as if the fun has been sucked out of everything and I don't even know what I'm doing.  I dread walking into the building every morning.  I always forget something I needed to do that day.  There's never enough time, the kids don't listen, the parents are crazy, and I'm just worn out and tired because there's a million things I still have to do.  I have pressure from everywhere to have every little detail planned and to be completely perfect.
This isn't who I am.