Growing Up Realizations

Almost two weeks into my final undergrad semester.  I had more focus coming back right after vacation (weird..) than I do now.  The vacation high has run down and now I just want to get back outside and jog without getting frostbite.  I hate being stuck inside like this.  I just want to escape to Sandy Ridge and do some laps.  Damn winter.

So a few days ago, Evan told me he wanted me to go desk shopping with him.  Random.  Today while we were looking he told me it's because he wanted to get a desk we both liked in case we ever moved in together, which would probably be within the next two years pending on our job situation.  I found this to be a subtle, yet sweet way of saying "I want a future with you".  He has been going down the more serious road recently which I'm good with because I care about him so much, but at the same time it's scary.  So I had told him if we get a place together my picture frames are going to look funny next to his anime scroll posters (he used to state that he would never not hang these things up even when I told him I didn't want them hanging up in our place, I came around obviously and don't see them as a bother).  Well he said that he was going to keep them but wasn't planning on hanging them up.  Instead we're just getting a curio cabinet to put my random knicknacks from travels and his pokemon.

Again, SCARY.  I'm so used to my room being my space and the thought of sharing that space with someone who is bringing their stuff into your life feels so foreign.  It wouldn't just be Kelly anymore.  Instead it's two of us.  But no more than two of us.  I won't have no babies tunneling their way out of my vagina.  NUH UH.