Figuring It All Out

It's dawned on me that I really really really love Evan. We're so alike but we're so different at the same time, just the perfect amount of each. The only problem we're coming across is that he doesn't know what he wants to go to school for yet so that is pushing his graduation back further than mine. Once I graduate I wanted to look in the Columbus area for a job and move down there but I don't want to leave Evan. I'm hoping near the end of college he'll propose. God, it feels like I'm thinking too far ahead and I defintely was not expecting this to happen so soon but this is it. I love him. There is nobody else I would want to be with and luckily (even though I hate to admit it) I actually can appreciate the relationship I had with Tim. It showed me what love wasn't so I could later distinguish it when it did happen. I'm very happy about that. Even though other things that make me mad or sad or glad may happen, I can always turn to him and he has never asked for anything in return.


I also think I've finally grown to appreciate college. It took me a little bit only because my initial plans were knocked off course because I was lazy but it must have worked out for the better. I do love LCCC even though they can make me mad at times, especially with the whole lack of cancelling classes thing. But I love randomly seeing people in my classes just walking around the mall or showing up at the library while I'm working, haha especially professors. I just don't feel like I'm making the most of my college years. I'm hoping to change that in the fall, even though I think I said the same thing last year. This year will be different! I'm so much closer to my goals, Megan told me that Mrs. Head wants to meet with us so we can get the early childhood ed. club going before fall semester. I think what I've been missing is the club scene. I always had it in high school and it felt good to be a part of something extra. I think it's just what I need for my third year :)